My last post sounded angry. This may sound weird, but I don't feel angry. Just STUCK. I'm caught between what the Lord wants of me, which seems to be contrasted sharply against what my parents cannot articulate. I feel like a person sent to a foreign country with none of the language skills needed to communcate. Frustrating!
I know I can only change myself or my reactions, but I feel as if ALL the demands for change (compliance within the "accepted" family system) is on me alone. My parents cannot see this because they are not even aware of a need to look for it... In this phase of life with the people around me, having open eyes feels like a terribly heavy burden. I'm in a very lonely place.
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